God is so incredibly faithful. He surpasses all I can ever think, dream or imagine every day. This is a new thing for me…seeing God as faithful, seeing God as someone I can trust. Let me give you some back story as to why I say that. I grew up in church. I have great parents who made God a daily (really like hourly) part of my life. I mean literally my dad talks about God all the time, and no, its not just because he is a pastor. See my dad has a quality about him that I was always kind of jealous of….He has more confidence in God than anyone I have ever met. Its like he KNEW God would never fail him, and things just always worked out for my dad. Crazy opportunities would come about effortlessly. It was like he was so special and God was always looking out for him, and he absolutely trusted that God would meet all his needs. I have never seen my dad doubt God. He is always saying “It says in the bible ‘I’ve never seen the righteous beg for bread'” He just always knew that God was going to take care of us. I was pretty jealous of this quality because I did not think God felt the same way about me. I am a worrier. I am anxious. I don’t sleep. I am a control freak. I currently take 40mg of Anxiety medication every day and 30mg of medication to help me sleep at night. Needless to say, I did not have the kind of confidence my dad has. In 2008 I began a journey that completely changed my life. This was not an easy journey…it was horrible. I found myself at the end of this journey so angry with God. I didn’t deserve all this pain..I was a good person. I went to church practically every day of the week…that had to count for something right?! Little did I know God was going to use this situation to bring me even closer to him than I ever thought I would be. See, God doesn’t favor my dad over me…I wasn’t letting God have that access in my life. I didn’t trust him. I didn’t see him as a loving God who wanted the best for me. God couldn’t work in my life and open doors for me because I wasn’t letting him. My anger and lack of trust blocked it. God has always wanted to be close with me. God has always wanted to bless me, and he has, just never this way. I hear his voice so clearly now. I don’t question him. He is pouring new truths into me every day. Honestly, it was the easiest transition I have ever made. God gave me so much grace in this…it has been so simple to give up control. And let me tell you…I was a control freak. To the extreme. I feel so free now. My stress level has rapidly decreased. It is easier for me to let things go. I am slow to anger. I am learning to forgive. I am learning to be comfortable in my own skin. I am learning that God created me for a divine purpose, and that I matter. I matter to the God who created the entire universe, and I am important. He cares about every aspect of my life. He is FOR me. He loves me with an everlasting unconditional love. He sees no fault when he looks at me, because Jesus has made me righteous. I have complete freedom in God, and I am confident that he has my back. I CAN trust him. He is faithful. I say all that to say, God has called me to share this journey with you. I don’t know who you are, but God has asked me to write down my journey of trust just so that he can teach YOU the same lessons. He loves you that much. He would go through this much trouble just so YOU can have the same freedom I have and am experiencing. Every day I wake up and God is pouring new truths into me. I am so excited to share them with you. I pray that my journey will help you in yours. I pray that God give you exactly what you need. I pray that God show you the areas in your life he wants to give you freedom in. Most importantly, I pray that God pour out his unconditional love on you so that you will know without a doubt that God loves you, He is FOR you, and you can trust him.