Lately I have been having a very difficult time. It seems like I get one problem resolved and 2 more come to take its place. Its a vicious cycle that seems to never end. God is constantly dealing with me about trusting Him, because its something I have to learn daily. Paul said he had to “die daily,” and its so true. I have to die everyday to all the things I think are best, my plans, and how I believe things should go. In return, I have to listen to the voice of God and step out in the faith that His plans are always so much better than my own. He is so good, and He just loves us so much. There just aren’t words for the emotions I feel when I think about how much Jesus loves me. Its so overwhelming. I know that He has my best interest at heart. Every single time. He is so good. But life is hard. Relationships are hard. Its all hard, and there is a lot of pain. It is hard for us to live in a world of pain and evil because we weren’t designed to live that way. There is a reason people are always searching for more and more. They desire heaven without even realizing it. I desire heaven everyday. Who doesn’t? There will be no pain and only love and acceptance. Yep. Sign me up!! We desire perfection. We desire it from ourselves, we desire it from others, and we desire it from life. The problem is, none of those things can give us what we want. Jesus is the only one that can satisfy our need for perfection. He is the only one who will never let us down. He is the only one who will get it right every time. We have set Godly expectations on our spouses, family, children, friends, etc. and I can promise you they will always let you down. No one is perfect.
It seems that what I have been facing lately is a sense of being lost. I quit my job a few months back due to anxiety and stress, and ever since I haven’t really been able to find my spot where I fit. Its hard being in-between. We have a desire to be accepted and found. We panic when we feel lost. A few months ago my grandfather died, and my mom made a comment that she “felt lost without him.” When she said that the Holy Spirit said the sweetest statement to me, “You are never lost. You are always found.” Every time I think about that statement I am overwhelmed because its so true. I am NEVER lost, I am ALWAYS found. Jesus is always right with me. He is always pursuing me. He always wants to be with me. I don’t get on His nerves. He thinks I am so awesome, and He will go to whatever means necessary to always find me. Even in the moments when I feel so lost. He is just so good.
I don’t know what your life looks like right now, but I do know that we all have problems. We have an enemy, and he is trying so hard to destroy all the good things God has for us. I don’t know about you, but I am fed up with the enemy wrecking havoc in my life. This year has been a year of spiritual warfare for me, and sometimes I get tired. That is when Jesus so graciously reminds me that He has already won the war. I am already a conquerer, and no matter how bad things seem I will always prevail because Jesus did. Jesus believed I was worth fighting for, when He went to the cross and now. So regardless of your situation, just remember…You are NEVER lost, You are ALWAYS found.