“For a long time now I thought I was just a survivor, but I’m not. I’m the winner.”
So earlier today I was talking to a friend, and he asked me a question…he said “So what have you been doing to get to your next step?”
Now, normally this question would intimidate me. 6 months ago or even 3 months ago I would not have had an answer. The last 6 months of my life have been very difficult. In December I made the bold decision to quit my job when I didn’t have another one lined up. In January my grandfather died and broke my heart. In February my depression increased. In March I began to see my relationship take a huge hit. In April I went through a bad break-up. I was getting it from all directions…But Jesus.
April to May has been such a time of growth. So when my friend asked me that question I had an answer…and it was an answer I was proud of.
I recently had a job interview for something I would really love. I am currently involved in 2 small groups filled with people I love. I have not been living in the past or trying to rejuvenate things that needed to be left alone. I have made so many new friends. I am exercising consistently, and even decided to run a 5k with some friends. I am healthier than I have ever been. My relationships are better than ever. I haven’t had to go back on any anxiety medication. Its hard for me to take naps now, and thats because I’m not depressed. I have a blog that I love. I have applied to ministry school, and most importantly my relationship with Jesus is better than it has ever been.
And after I thought about all that I just thought to myself…I did it. I beat it. The world tried to break me and I didn’t let it. I’m the winner. Jesus is the winner.
I don’t know if you have ever walked through a season where you don’t feel like yourself, but it’s so difficult to feel out of place. I think we all have this need to feel like we are progressing, and if we aren’t seeing our lives moving forward in a way we like then we become discouraged. Its so easy to fall into discouragement and depression because things aren’t going our way.
However, I would encourage you to look at where you were 3 months ago. Maybe you will be like me, and you will be so proud of yourself. Maybe you just didn’t see the progress that was happening. Or maybe you will look back and not like what you see…thats ok. We have all been there. But you can do it. You can make positive changes in your life, and it just starts with taking a few steps. So if you don’t like what you see…figure out a practical, attainable way to make some changes.
We all go through seasons of little progress. We all go through seasons of waiting. But Jesus will sustain you. He will give you the strength you need to press through. He is so faithful, and He is for you. The God of the Universe is on your side, and He has already given you everything you need.
I just want to encourage you to keep going. Keep moving forward whether its a big step or a little step. Its all progress. Be proud of yourself because you are awesome, and the world tried to break you but you didn’t let it. You won.